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On December 5, 2012, I had laid down to take a nap. A woke up later and decided to sit with my kid and watch television. I watched about 30-45 minutes of television and as I was sitting on the couch with her I saw a flashing light in the corner of my left eye. During that time I was still seeing flashing lights and shadows in the corners of both eyes but this time a flashing light in the upper corner of my left eye. When I directed both eyes to the direction of the flashing light I noticed a shadow of a silohette of a half-figured alien in front of my livingroom door. I looked away and then looked back towards the door it was still there. It appeared to be just a frozen half-shadow of an alien. It looked exactly the way they’ve been depicted in movies with the oval-shaped head and skinny arms. Except I could only see one of it’s arms. I felt my heart began to race but then I had to tell myself that I had to calm down because I didn’t want to upset my kid. I felt the fear trying to set in but I was able to calm down. So I shut my eyes tight for the 3rd time and opened them and it was gone. I was very puzzled about what I had actually seen but then I remember there are other like-minded awakened individuals who have seen E.T.’s and other beings. The next day, my kid told me about a weird dream that she had that night about a spaceship had landed at her school and an alien stepped off of the spaceship and just starred curiously at everyone. She said that it didn’t hurt anyone but just stood there and starred at everyone in a curious manner. I almost started to cry because I thought that maybe whatever this thing is was trying to now come after my child. Then, I thought about it later on that maybe the alien really was curious and did not mean any harm to me or my child. I believe that maybe these E.T.’s are just as scared of us as we are of them. I’ve read that sometimes these aliens will make visits to observe us human beings and sometimes they visit us as a reminder that we must take care of the Earth. I did question my kid for days to follow to see if she had any other strange dreams and to this date, my kid never had another dream about an alien. I did find that this was strange that something I saw in the livingroom actually manifested itself in my child’s dream that same night. Therefore, I do believe that what I saw was real and I wasn’t crazy. Besides, I had never spoken a word about what I had seen that day to anyone including my own child. By the way, I’m still sane thanks to other awakened individuals in the world who share similar experiences of seeing E.T.’s or other spiritual beings. I still continue to condition my brain with information on the symptoms of an awakening so that it won’t come to a surprise whenever I do see things such as this or feel strange aches and pains. Keeping the brain conditioned with information on the symptoms of a spiritual awakening tends to keep me centered and sane. Also reaching out to like-minded awakened individuals online and reading about similar experiences that we share makes me feel like I’m not alone.

I’ve been having many symptoms relating to my awakening. Yesterday was so bad I could hardly complete my work shift. I’ve been trying to surrender to these symptoms but it is so hard to do when you’ve got to work and pay bills. Please pray for me that I can surrender myself to these awakening symptoms. The only hope that I can get through this is whenever I think about when my father had quit (cold turkey) drinking alcohol and I remembered how he battled the symptoms of alcohol withdrawal and it wasn’t a pretty sight to see him like that. But he stayed strong and beat his alcoholism. Luckily, I didn’t inherit this disease (alcoholism). I’m just an unfulfilled person who just feels that there has to be more to life than just pleasing everyone else. It just seems like the more I help others become satisfied, the more I realized my own needs were being neglected and that I’m unhappy with life and deserve the happiness that is going to come in the end. I’ve been going through these symptoms lately:

1) Tingling in the top of my head

2) Although I can breathe, there’s a tightness or constricting feeling around my throat. **My doctor told me that the problems I’m having with my throat are beyond the medical textbook**

3) Headaches off and on

4) An over-anxious feeling in my face and behind my eyes

5) Hypersentivity with eyes and ears

6) Spaced out or brain fogginess

7) The feeling that I might be losing my mind (scariest feeling)

8) Seeing shadows and bright flashing lights from the corners of both eyes

9) Seeing the shadow of a “being” in my livingroom after awakening from a nap

10) Lucid dreams & seeing images right before drifting off into a deep sleep.

11)  Muscle twitching

12) Heavy sweating during the night

13) Waking up @4:04am a lot

14) Crying at the drop of a hat

15) Neck and shoulder pain off and on

16) Heating of the neck and upper spine during meditation

17) Attacks of feeling terror on the body as though you may need to scream or as if something is trying to rip out of your chest.

18) Foods feeling warm to hot while holding them. I felt a warm to hot sensation in my hand while holding a frozen food entree` while it was still frozen.

19) Whole body vibrates at night while having lucid dreams. My feet will vibrate upon wakening. These vibrations are felt more like inner vibrations not outer vibrations.

20) No emotional support because no one believes me. Love & support is lacking while I’m going through these things. I’ve distance myself from my family and don’t really phone them up as much.

I had another dream today and it was those same numbers again 2, 21. Anyway, I keep wondering how must one that is undergoing the awakening symptoms cope while at work or on the job. I’ve read some people had difficulty trying to cope with the symtoms and work at the same time due to bills had to be paid and kids needed to be taken care of. How must one cope with all of this?

Last night, I was able to practice forming an energy ball for healing. It was quite the  experience. Once I experienced this amazing feeling the first time, I had to try 2 more times. I now realize that maybe this power or energy has always been in us humans but we weren’t told of it. We can do our own self-healing with this practice. I had to go outside to get “grounded” afterwards. I felt even better aftewards the grounding process. I also had about 4 1/2 cups of water.

Today, I was drinking a lot of water and noticed 2 minutes later that there was a feeling of pressure in the center of my forehead. I felt this pressure on an off a few times but it didn’t last too long.

Last night, I remember having this strange dream about a calendar and I can see the numbers 2 or 21 but then I woke myself up. I’m not sure what this stands for but it’s the first time I’ve ever dreamed of numbers since my awakening. Also, I’m still seeing these flashes of bright white light at the ceiling and shadows from the corners of my eyes. I can never look directly at these strange shadows or lights. I’m still trying to overcome FEAR because being awakened is all new to me. I read about people having to go through the symptoms for months and sometimes years. But, I hope my transition won’t be too brutal.

I’ve been going through a lot of the symptoms of the spiritual awakening lately. My awakening was triggered by a lot of self questioning and desperation of wanting to get answers. It just seemed like the doors would never open for me and there was always a dead end road no matter where I turned. Then one day, I realized that everything I had been taught throughout my life was an illusion. One big ILLUSION. On October 22, 2012, I remember waking up with a bliss. A strange bliss. This bliss overwhelmed me with LOVE until I couldn’t get upset anyone that day. Then I realized that this maybe a strange feeling bliss but it was also a good feeling bliss because I couldn’t shake it from the brain no matter how hard I tried. This bliss lasted for about 2 days then something strange happened while I was driving to work in my car on the 3rd day. I remember feeling this ball of energy or a power of force strike me at the very bottom of my spine and the energy traveled outward causing me to feel like I was having a panic attack. But I realized this wasn’t a panic attack because I wasn’t sweating or breathing fast and my heart rate was normal. So I ended up going home that day from work because it left my body feeling like there was too much energy racing throughout every limb especially the legs. I felt like screaming because it felt like something wanted to burst out of my chest or something wanted to be released. Anyhow, I ended up calling in to work the next day because that overwhelming feeling of energy still had a small impact on my body.

Prior to my October 22nd Spiritual Awakening date, I’ve been awakened from sleep on 2 different dates where my feet were vibrating while I was lying in bed. It wasn’t a vibrating feeling that was scary but noticeable. It would stop once I pulled the sheets back.

So far, I’ve had 1 night of lucid dreams where in these dreams I could actually controll what I can do inside of the images I saw in my dreams. Afterwards, I wrote them down on paper to see if anything would manifest from this.

I’ve also been touched by a “being” that I thought was my boyfriend while I was asleep one night. The feeling was warm and comforting. I was asking him to help me because it felt like some form of energy field was forming around my body in the bed and was about to pull me from my body. The more I told this “being” to help me, he would only rub my arm gently as though he wanted me to calm down and relax because everything would be okay. I found myself waking up out of whatever was happening to me.

Since that October 22, 2012 date of my awakening, I’ve been healed from a lot of my aches and pains that my body would go through. I no longer have these ailments anymore.  Some foods that I used to like taste so different now.  I have the urge to eat right and exercise to take better care of my body.

I sometimes have to take a break from online reading, movies or anything that will provide me with more knowledge about the spiritual awakening because my brain starts getting this tingling sensation on the top of my head with tingling on the left & right side of the brain.

I’ve seen floating indigo colors with my eyes open one night when I was very comfortable in my bed. It only happened once. I’m now seeing shadows in the corner of my eyes and flashes of light. I’m going to the eye doctor rule things out so that I’ll know “it is what it is” as far as symptoms of the awakening.

I wake up some days with my eyes so hypersensitive to light until I have to call in sick for work and my ears are so hypersensitive until some days I hate the sound of my tires as they roll on the highway. 

Some days, I felt like I was floating and not walking on the floor. I fixed this problem by walking & standing barefeet on the concrete sidewalk outside. This really helped me get grounded and dissolved a lot of negative energy and thoughts that made me question my sanity. Everything seemed to fall in place after 2-3 hours later. My walking had returned to normal and my thoughts were coherent and I knew I was not insane because it was the old ego trying to hold on and does not want me to let go of the old me.

As of date, I have yet to master how to overcome fear. The spiritual awakening is all new to me and it happened without warning. It’s also somewhat of a scary experience to go through some of these symptoms.

I’ve been feeling so lonely and depressed lately because no one understands me or what I’m going through. It feels like a lonely road that I’ve got to travel all by myself. I try to find like-minded people that have been spiritual awakened also. I feel like I’ve been born again or as if I’m going through a re-birthing process. I talk to God most days when I feel the need to talk about how I’m handling my symptoms.