I’ve been going through a lot of the symptoms of the spiritual awakening lately. My awakening was triggered by a lot of self questioning and desperation of wanting to get answers. It just seemed like the doors would never open for me and there was always a dead end road no matter where I turned. Then one day, I realized that everything I had been taught throughout my life was an illusion. One big ILLUSION. On October 22, 2012, I remember waking up with a bliss. A strange bliss. This bliss overwhelmed me with LOVE until I couldn’t get upset anyone that day. Then I realized that this maybe a strange feeling bliss but it was also a good feeling bliss because I couldn’t shake it from the brain no matter how hard I tried. This bliss lasted for about 2 days then something strange happened while I was driving to work in my car on the 3rd day. I remember feeling this ball of energy or a power of force strike me at the very bottom of my spine and the energy traveled outward causing me to feel like I was having a panic attack. But I realized this wasn’t a panic attack because I wasn’t sweating or breathing fast and my heart rate was normal. So I ended up going home that day from work because it left my body feeling like there was too much energy racing throughout every limb especially the legs. I felt like screaming because it felt like something wanted to burst out of my chest or something wanted to be released. Anyhow, I ended up calling in to work the next day because that overwhelming feeling of energy still had a small impact on my body.
Prior to my October 22nd Spiritual Awakening date, I’ve been awakened from sleep on 2 different dates where my feet were vibrating while I was lying in bed. It wasn’t a vibrating feeling that was scary but noticeable. It would stop once I pulled the sheets back.
So far, I’ve had 1 night of lucid dreams where in these dreams I could actually controll what I can do inside of the images I saw in my dreams. Afterwards, I wrote them down on paper to see if anything would manifest from this.
I’ve also been touched by a “being” that I thought was my boyfriend while I was asleep one night. The feeling was warm and comforting. I was asking him to help me because it felt like some form of energy field was forming around my body in the bed and was about to pull me from my body. The more I told this “being” to help me, he would only rub my arm gently as though he wanted me to calm down and relax because everything would be okay. I found myself waking up out of whatever was happening to me.
Since that October 22, 2012 date of my awakening, I’ve been healed from a lot of my aches and pains that my body would go through. I no longer have these ailments anymore. Some foods that I used to like taste so different now. I have the urge to eat right and exercise to take better care of my body.
I sometimes have to take a break from online reading, movies or anything that will provide me with more knowledge about the spiritual awakening because my brain starts getting this tingling sensation on the top of my head with tingling on the left & right side of the brain.
I’ve seen floating indigo colors with my eyes open one night when I was very comfortable in my bed. It only happened once. I’m now seeing shadows in the corner of my eyes and flashes of light. I’m going to the eye doctor rule things out so that I’ll know “it is what it is” as far as symptoms of the awakening.
I wake up some days with my eyes so hypersensitive to light until I have to call in sick for work and my ears are so hypersensitive until some days I hate the sound of my tires as they roll on the highway.
Some days, I felt like I was floating and not walking on the floor. I fixed this problem by walking & standing barefeet on the concrete sidewalk outside. This really helped me get grounded and dissolved a lot of negative energy and thoughts that made me question my sanity. Everything seemed to fall in place after 2-3 hours later. My walking had returned to normal and my thoughts were coherent and I knew I was not insane because it was the old ego trying to hold on and does not want me to let go of the old me.
As of date, I have yet to master how to overcome fear. The spiritual awakening is all new to me and it happened without warning. It’s also somewhat of a scary experience to go through some of these symptoms.
I’ve been feeling so lonely and depressed lately because no one understands me or what I’m going through. It feels like a lonely road that I’ve got to travel all by myself. I try to find like-minded people that have been spiritual awakened also. I feel like I’ve been born again or as if I’m going through a re-birthing process. I talk to God most days when I feel the need to talk about how I’m handling my symptoms.